Ten years ago, I went to see Garden State with this guy I kind of had a crush on.
Ten years ago, that same boy took me to see my first emo show at Stubb's in Austin - Taking Back Sunday. Fall Out Boy. and Matchbook Romance. I was decked out in my hot pink Dickie's capris (from Hot Topic, naturally) and beat up converse and I followed that boy deep into the crowd, where I was thrown back and forth by the mass of people around me, unable to stand on my own & completely lost in the new experience. It was about the time a crowd surfer kicked me in the head that I look back to see that boy reaching up to protect me. That was the moment I fell in love with the boy who would become my husband.
we always took after-show selfies with a disposable camera at each show. I shared a few concert snapshots from over the years here.
After that, going to shows to see live music became one of my favorite things about dating C. We saw so many good bands all over Austin. We burned CD's and made mixtapes (something we're still doing). Music became the common language between us. To some extent, it still is today.
We recently went back to Stubbs, almost ten years to the day of my first show there. Our ultimate favorite band, Brand New, was back in Austin after almost five years, and we weren't going to miss it for anything. So much has changed since that first show. Now, we had cell phones and Tecate in our hand. We weren't all up in each other's business, "sneaking" butt grabs and kisses the way only teenagers dare. But we were together. As the intro music started to play and the lights faded to black, the usual rush to the front began. As we were pushed forward by the power of hundreds of excited fans, we found ourselves back in familiar territory. The band came on, the music blared loud, and I could feel my body get wrapped up in the familiar sounds.
Brand New's first full length album ends with a ballad about teenage love... "Soco Amaretto Lime" was our go-to whenever we needed a singalong around a campfire, or while lying in the yard looking at stars. We sang it a million times with or without the music, it really didn't matter. It's a song that felt so real when I was 18, a little wishful when I was 20 and now just very nostalgic at 26.
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever
So we can stay like this forever
And we'll never miss a party
cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen
to anyone about anything
cause it's all been done and it's all been said
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get
Naturally as this anniversary was approaching, and I knew we'd be standing on the dirt at Stubb's watching Brand New, I wanted to put togheter something to mark the occasion. So I turned the song of my youth into a cocktail: a Bourbon Amaretto.
This cocktail is easy drinking. It's smooth and a little deceptive. But everytime I pour one, I can feel the rush of nostalgia come over me. I'm reminded of all the times over the years that I've made a memory with C. These past ten years have been both amazing and exhausting. It's tough growing up with another person and continuing to grow in the same direction. But somehow, we've managed. I can't wait to see what the next ten years brings.